Double Dog Dare?!

Okay...let me get one thing straight before you read this...I do...as everyone else does..have a past. So, with that said..I will answer these questions completely honestly...I got this from my cousin's sight.

1. Copy this whole list into your journal / blog.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

01. I've had sex in the past five minutes.
02. I enjoy oral sex.
03. I scream loudly during sex.
04. I love sleeping with more than two people.
05. I own at least two books about sex.
06. I've peeked into the locker room of the opposite sex.
07. I have taken money for sex.
08. I've had sex while under the influence of a controled substance.
09. I've been in porn movies.
10. I have been the odd person in a threesome.
11. I have published the sexual exploits of a past relationship without telling my ex.
12. I have lied to a lover about having an affair.
13. I have more than ten tattoos.
14. I like and respect Jenna Jameson.
15. I like slow sex.
16. I have learned a lot sexually over the past year.
17. I have a sexual fantasy about another blogger.
18. I've been told I'm a great lover.
19. I carry a condom at all times.
20. I'm interested in trying suspension.
21. I've broken a bone while having sex.
22. I have a wet dream that I am ashamed to reveal.
23. I have had sex in the rain.
24. I have had sex while someone else watched.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it would improve my sex life.
26. I want to fuck right now.
27. I like to play with food.
28. I like sex that's hard and fast.
29. I always brush my teeth after sex.
30. I shave my pubic hair.
31. I have traveled out of town to have sex.
32. I have fantasized about having sex with my brother-/sister-in-law.
33. I have had sex with a person from a country other than my own.
34. I dress to look sexy every day.
35. I have had sex with twins.
36. I have had sex with someone I met over the internet.
37. I have more than ten sex toys.
38. I like the way I look naked.
39. I have lied to get a person to have sex with me.
40. I change from one sex position to another in a specific order each time.
41. I saw my parents having sex.
42. I get cable just for the soft porn.
43. I think legalized prostitution can reduce some crime.
44. I have a list of people I would like to see naked.
45. I am regularly tested for STDS.
46. I am one kinky bitch.
47. I'm always hungry after sex.
48. I enjoy phone sex.
49. I have been arrested for being naked in public.
50. I have had sloppy drunk sex with a stranger.

Birthday Blues

Oh my Freaking Gosh!! My Friend just reminded me that I'm going to be 1 year older in exactly 3 weeks. Wow. I remember the days when I couldn't wait to turn 21. Now I just want to go back to those days. I look in the mirror everyday and it seems that I find a new wrinkle. It's sad cause I'm already looking at these moisturizers and eye-lifting creams. Crazy. My skin really isn't bad, it's just that I keep realizing that I'm getting older. 28 years old. That's just 2 years away from 30!! Blah.

I have a list of things that I wanted to do before I was 30, and I've only done like 2 of them. Oh my. I definitely want to have a party when I'm 30. Either that or go out with my girls. hmm...that might not have to wait until I'm 30..hehe.

Donations

Okay, I'm getting mushy today.. I had a person come in to my work today and talk about giving donations to the children that are under state custody. My heart sunk when she told me that there was a tree with little children from the ages of 3 to 10 that were in need of Christmas Gifts. 90 children in all. Wow. That's sad. It makes me realize that I was just a spoiled brat growing up. I pretty much had everything I wanted.

So, now I've gotta figure out how many children I can afford to "sponsor." At times like these I truly wish I was rich..I honestly think that I would spend so much money on donating to worthy causes such as this one. I already am a sponsor to a child at this children's hospital in S.A. that specializes in rare diseases and cancers. But, my budget's tight. Really!! I know that we're going to just buy for the kids this year. That's all we can really afford. But, I definitely am going to try to donate something to these kids who have had their world turned upside down. I wish I could just see their faces when they received their gifts, you know?

Thanksgiving

Wow, I can't believe that Thanksgiving is next week! It's coming up so quickly! You know what I hate about the end of the year? Is that the holidays seem to just fly by, and at the beginning of the year I'm kinda like..okay...so what are we celebrating next?! Absolutely nothing...I start a whole year of not really getting together with the family anymore, everyone goes their separate ways, and I lose that festive feeling. I think I know what it is though. It's because I'm getting older. Nothing stays the same. I remember when I used to love the holidays because of the family visiting.

It was weird though, cause I was kinda like the odd-man-out. I was pretty much one that got picked on, but it didn't matter to me. I always kept my head up and kept a smile on my face. That's one thing that my Mom taught me. No matter how much people hurt you, don't show them that it does. Just laugh, and keep going. People like that aren't worth it. And, she taught me something that not only helped me cope as a child, but something that also helps me now-a-days with adult idiots that I deal with on a day to day basis. Anyway, I didn't care that I got picked on..I just loved the fact that I was going to get to see everyone. I loved everyone..truly. Well, maybe except a couple. lol. Laurie, I loved you...so don't freak out. But, I just remember being so happy as a kid seeing everyone come over and the smile it put on my Grandma's face. I love her so much... She's 84 now and I think she's wonder-woman. lol. I only wish I could live a long life like she has.

But, I'm just feeling a little sad this year. I think it's because I know every holiday period means that not only am I getting a year older, but so is she. Yep...that's it. I'm scared.. She had a clogged artery last year in April..and I was there when she was in pain..I couldn't deal with it. I shut myself down. I don't like to talk about it, and I just keep living in denial. It's even hard to go and visit her now. I go to pick my kids up from the house, and I just like to honk so they can come out. I know I've got issues. lol...but I don't mean to be that way. I think I'd just rather deny the fact that she's getting older than come to the reality of it. She pretty much brought me up..I mean when I was little and it was time for me to enter Kindergarten, they had to put me in a bi-lingual class because all I knew was spanish. Wow. That's funny. Do you remember me trying to talk to you in Spanish, Laurie? LOL. You probably just laughed and agreed with it all, and said "Bless Your Heart." LOL. Anyway, I'll end with a short quote that a friend told me once.."When you were brought into this world, it was to replace your parents." Bummer...but true.

mmmm..Hot Chocolate.

It is feeling so nice today outside!! It's about 50 degrees outside and I just went and got myself a large cup of Hot Chocolate..mmmmm... It's something about the cold weather that I love soooo much. I think it's a combination of a lot of things. Memories of past boyfriends, seeing the Christmas lights coming out, and for some reason I am in a much better mood when it's cool out. lol. I think it's cause my fat butt just can't stand doing anything in the heat cause I end up feeling all sticky and yucky. In the wintertime it's like I can wear a long sleeve for the purpose of keeping warm, and not just cause I can't stand my big fat arms..lmao.

Then, the memories...ahhh..the memories ::sigh:: they're always there. Every time it gets cold like this I feel it. My old boyfriend. Let me tell you the story... I had this friend that I'm still friends with even now. He calls to see how I'm doing at work...and it's so nice to hear from him from time to time. Anyway, back to my story...I was so in love with this guy...but he was young and so was I, and he just was a little horny dog...that's all. I wouldn't give it up, and for some unknown reason, I just wasn't attracted to him in that way...well, we broke up and we stayed friends, and in H.S. I would give him rides to school and what not.. But, there was always that sexual tension between us...you know? So, one night I decided that I was going to tell my Mother that I was spending the night at my friends house...and instead I was going to stay the night with him. I hadn't told him my plans, but I didn't want him to hold me to it if, for some reason, I changed my mind... So, the night went as planned. He had a lot of his friends over, and I pretty much was his "girl" for the night. All was going wonderfully...he had this long trench coat that he wore and he was holding me so tightly in the coat with him. I just remember the warmth, and his kisses. It was just so romantic..being outside in the cold weather..it kind of gave us an excuse to get closer.... But, an ex-girlfriend showed up...and it was just recently that they had broken up...so I knew that it wasn't going to turn out like I had planned...and sure enough, I decided to give him his space just to see how it would turn out. And, needless to say I ended up going home early. I was so hurt, but I didn't show it...I made out with his friend. LMAO. I had already told myself that it just couldn't work cause we were too close as "friends." And, to this day he asks me why we were never able to take it to the next step...dumbass. He used to tell me that if we wouldn't have gotten married, that we would be together, and we'd have beautiful children.. blah blah blah. He was a player..straight out. And, I tell him that, too. But, oh well. I love my life right now. My husband loves me, and my kids are Gorgeous!! hehe. He ended up with a hag, and he's miserable. Oh well...that's how life works..weird isn't it?

Acne

Okay, I don't know what I've been doing in order to create these huge volcanos on my face. I know that I'm not really a chocolate eater, but lately I have been eating every single piece of chocolate I can find. And, it's not really hard to find because of Halloween and all. We had a bowl of chocolates here, and it only lasted for a few days. But, I'm really bummed now because I never really have ever had bad acne. I've got two huge pimples on my chin, and now I've got one coming out on my nose. I remember in High School worrying about my skin, but I'm a 27 year old wife, and a mother of 2. Why in the world would I have to worry about my skin now?! So, I really don't take care of it as well as I should, but I can't afford to go out and spend lots of money on cleansers, and facial masks and exfoliators and all that...as much as I'd love to pamper myself from time to time. So, besides washing my face with a regular bar of soap at night I really don't do anything else to take care of my face. I do use a moisturizer with spf 15...but that's about it. So, I'm stumped. Are there any kind of foods maybe that might help my skin clear up? Like I know carrots are good for your eyes, so there has to be something that could help me...besides stopping my chocolate habit.

Work

I think I'm going to go look for another job. Hey, Laurie maybe if you start working and find a job in Austin I can catch a ride with you? I need to go somewhere that I'm going to enjoy working. I enjoy it here cause my co-workers are awesome, but I can't stand the politics. I just want to go to work, do my job and go home not having to worry about who said what and how close you are to people. I just want to work. Is that bad?