Plane Trip

The last time I flew was when I was 13. And, I flew with my Mommy. Now, I'm the Mommy, and I'm trying really hard to keep my head up and be strong for my kids. But Honestly, I'm Freaking OUT! I don't know why cause usually I'm really strong and helping everyone else with their issues.

Lately, I've been relying a lot on my friends just to make me feel better. That's crazy...I think I'm going nuts. One thing that's kinda causing my anxiety is the fact that I can't control what the plane is going to do, and I KNOW I shouldn't be thinking like that, but man, I can't get that out of my head! I'm usually an extremely positive person! I have the best outlook on everything! It's just that I think this Mommy thing is kicking in and I'm feeling helpless when it comes to the control of the plane. I have no control of it.

And it doesn't help when my man is worse than I am! I mean, he's being a complete wuss about the trip, and it's making me worse. I just wish he was a strong, confident man. He's not...he's almost the complete opposite. I need for him to take control of the situation, and what's scary is that I know he can't. Everything is usually on me to take care of. And now that I need him, he can't be there for me. It's just not in his nature to be a strong, confident person. It's just not.

So, I turn to you....Laurie....man I miss you. :(.....

Girl's Gathering

Well, we had a really nice time at the house on Sat. night. It was just 5 of us girls at first, and it was fun. We had burgers, without Burger Buns..we just used slices of bread, and my friends just laughed cause I had forgotten to go buy them. hehe. We started drinking about the same time we started eating dinner, which was about 6pm. Amy brought her smoothie maker over, and we attempted to make smoothies, but for some reason it just wasn't coming out right. I think she said she added a bit too much liquid, but it was good. I liked them.

The Birthday girl brought Crown & Coke. She had a good time. We talked and laughed and reminisced about old times. She whooped us at Dominos...bad. So bad we just stopped playing. lol. The other girls even switched dominos with her when she got up to go to the bathroom, and she STILL won.. And to top it all off, she was pretty blasted. That's some kinda talent she's got. hehe.

Michelle didn't make it, but she was there in spirit. And she called us at midnight to tell us that her family had eaten Mandy's birthday cake. lol. Mescans...

Amy hasn't changed a bit. She drives a freaking Mercedes.. a Mercedes. But she hasn't changed a single bit, which is one thing I love about her.

Lisa brought penis shaped straws, and made us use them...nice. lol. She's crazy.

Jesu was there for a while catching up on all the gossip from the past, and she ended up leaving after a while to go help her friend Kim. She missed out on the domino game.

Ghetto Booty

You know I was just starting to feel like I wanted to just quit the whole walking to lose weight thing, when I glanced in the mirror this morning while I was picking my shoes up from the floor...and I saw a slight change in my thighs. I had to get up and do a double take cause I thought surely that I just had something in my eye that made me see what I thought I saw. But I rubbed my eyes, and stood there. My Booty is firming up! Wow! I mean, it's only been 4 weeks since I started this whole thing, but I was starting to get soo bummed because I wasn't seeing results.

My weight really hasn't changed much, but my face is slimming a bit and my booty and thighs are slowly but surely showing an improvement. I'm really proud of myself now! I mean, usually I'll just talk and talk and talk about losing weight, and doing something for myself...but this time I'm actually doing it!

I don't mean to toot my own horn here, but dude....it takes a lot for me to get motivated. My friends have helped me, but they could push until their blue in the face. I won't do anything unless I want to do it for myself, and I want to lose 50 lbs. by June. You think that's possible? Hmmm...

Second weekend in June is our 10 year High School Reunion. Wow. I need to stay motivated...10 pounds every month...I can do it.

I spoke to an old friend last night...Michelle. She was a buddy of mine from High School, and eventually she ended up living with me when my husband and I first separated. It was a rough time, but she helped me get through a lot of it. I was turning into a real bitch back then. I'm glad I didn't keep being a bitch...it wasn't me. Anyway, we talked for about 30 minutes, and she's planning to come down tomorrow for my friends birthday party we're having at my house. Woo Hoo!!

Laurie isn't coming though...cause she's moving.......I think I'm gonna cry now..again. Jesu can't make it either. Something about her friend's Baby Daddy. She's gonna help her out..so I excused her. lol.

Okay, now I'm just rambling...so I'll stop. I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!! Get back to you soon with an update on my weekend...laterz!!

CALIFORNIA!!

Woo Hoo!! Guess where I'm going to be the last weekend in January? CALIFORNIA!

Can you tell I'm excited? I know the weather has been kinda crazy lately, but you know I'm so tired of my hum-drum every day routine, that I'm ready for any kind of change right now. Besides, the weather here has been loopty, too.

Last night I was trying to make a list of all the things I needed to pack so I can be ready when the time comes. I'm leaving on the 28th, and getting back on the 2nd...Wednesday night. It's going to be a short trip, but I think it'll be awesome. Can't wait.

We're mostly going to visit family. I'm not looking forward to the plane ride though. The last time I rode a plane was when I was 13. 15 years ago...wow. We went to Disneyland. But, it sucked because we ended up in 29 Palms with one of my Mom's friends. We did absolutely nothing for 3 days. Just sat there watching California TV...it was horrible....

The Walking Resolution...

Well, where should I start? I'll begin by saying that I was a very BAD GIRL this weekend. I tried to go walking every day this past weekend, and it just didn't happen. I did get out of the house at 9pm every night, but as soon as I got to my friends house we just chilled there.

We did watch some awesome shows though!! hehe. Have you ever seen the Bartender's World Championship? Well, I saw that on Sunday night and it was Awesome!! These Bartenders are crazy!! They can balance things on their chins, and their foreheads, and juggle 4 bottles at once!! You know, I'd be happy if I just knew how to make 4 drinks..let alone do all the tricks with the bottles and tins. Crazy. And, they also have to pour their drinks like to an 8th of an oz. Without using a measuring cup!! Unbelievable...

And, then last night I put my warm-ups on, and went to pick my friend up...she's in her jogging suit when she comes to the door...and tells me "Come inside!! It's fucking Freezing out there!! I just put a movie in for us.." LOL. Garden State...Have you ever seen that? It was crazy funny. My life is rather normal compared to these poor characters in the movie. I've actually got a pretty good life. I'm very happy right now. If I could just get up and walk like I'm supposed to, I'd be good to go.

Shame on me.....

Quickie

Okay, here's a quickie..hope you enjoy....lol.

One of our Grocery Stores has an isle marker that says

HISPANIC FOODS

Do any of your stores have this marker???

Ex. Machine from Hell

Lately I've been doing very well with my "lose weight" Resolution....I'm very proud of myself. I've been waiting 'til 9 pm to go walking with my friend.

BUT

Last night the weather here in Central TX got CRAZY! It just started pouring rain and a cold front came in at the time that my friend Jesu and I go walking. In about 15 minutes it changed from 75 degrees to 50. So, we decided that since we couldn't go walking at the track, that we would use her eliptical machine.

Have you ever used one of these things?! It's like riding a freaking bike without a seat! I almost passed out and died after about 5 minutes...lol...if even that long! Jesu has a funny way of encouraging you, though. She just keeps repeating..C'mon Manda!! You can do it! C'mon Manda!! You can do it! Over and over and over...

Somebody just shoot me please!!! So, we stayed at it for a while, but the heart rate monitor and the timer were out of batteries, so we couldn't tell how many calories we had burned.. I'm just glad that I got some type of workout. I hope that it doesn't rain tonight, cause I can take the cold. But, I don't think I can take that eliptical machine one more night!

Just a Few Thoughts

I love a challenge. It's challenging to find a way out of the house to go see someone you shouldn't be talking to. But I love it. I love the smell of his cologne, the smile on his face, his sweet compliments...
I know it's wrong, but I love it. Don't know how far it's going to go, but right now I'm not looking at that. It's risky, it's romantic, and it's stupid. lol. I don't think I'll ever really feel comfortable with being tied down. I'm a free spirit, and I start to feel suffocated when I've been in a relationship too long. I sound like my daily horoscopes. hehe. I know that I'm going to continue this cause I just can't stop. Not now.

I'm going to miss my cuz. I keep thinking about the fun times that we've had these past few weeks, and I know I'm going to miss her. She's the one that helps me realize what I'm worth. Sure I have my Mom, and other Fam. members, but usually they're telling me what to do. Laurie just sits there and listens, and laughs at me occasionally. lol. Sucks. She's such a strong person, and I wish I could be just like her. In a way, she's like a big sister to me. She's got bigger boobies..lol. But, a few of you have probably already seen that she even puts Pamela to shame. hehehe..

I went walking with my friend Jesusa last night......I'm trying to come up with an excuse not to go with her again. My legs are in agony today. She MADE me jog. MADE me. She definitely shed a few pounds off of me last night, so I really shouldn't complain, but damn that hooch for being so persistent. I need to thank her though cause I'm one step closer to getting my ghetto booty into shape.

PAIN...PURE PAIN

OK..I FEEL LIKE I TRIED TO LIFT AN ELEPHANT, AND MY ARM WAS RIPPED OUT OF IT'S SOCKET!!
I am in sooooo much pain right now it hurts to type.
Question: How long should you go with this pain until you go to the doctor?

I think this is how it happened....
I go walking every night and I take a little radio no bigger than my palm. Well, I hook it onto my pants on my right side, and when I was swinging my arm, I slapped it and made it fall about 2 steps in front of me. Well, there were people behind me and I wanted to pick it up quickly as to not disrupt their strides. Well, it fell to the left of me, and instead of using my legs to bend over, I just bent over from my waist, and stretched my right arm, in a quick thrust to pick it up. Two laps later, my shoulder started to throb. This happened on Wednesday of last week..and I'm still in agony. You think it's time to go to the doctor? And, is it worth it? I mean, what can they do? It feels like I really strained my back muscle. blah...

Quite a Few Things

Okay, today I have quite a few things on my mind.

#1. Why did I live my life like I'm 50, and I'm twenty something?

#2. I know that I'm a healer, so I think it's time I look into being some sort of counselor. Better late than never.

#3. I'm not dealing with people who aren't worth my time anymore....blah. I don't love him...but I do love HIM.

#4. Being Nice is my downfall. Well, you know what?! Kiss My Ass if you don't like me. I could give a shit anymore. There...I said it.

#5. My Sex Life is good, but this next year...I'm definitely improving it. It doesn't hurt to look into sex paraphenalia...hmmm..maybe have one of those sex parties...

#6. I need to take care of myself. Make myself happy. It's okay to be a bit selfish.

#7. I sure do wish I could travel more. Meet new people.

#8. The Real World coming to Austin, TX.

#9. Wanna go shopping...buy an entirely new wardrobe. I need a stylist's help. Got a ghetto booty...I like my ghetto booty..

Sum up Weekend..

It was awesome...We took my cousin Laurie out for the weekend and gave her a "going away" party. It was bittersweet. I'm going to miss her much, but I know that she's ready to get the hell out of this town. She's going to be so happy in the big D.

It was only four of us, though, instead of the original six. Me, Jesu, Laurie, and Maria. Mandy couldn't go cause it was her anniversary and they had something planned. Lisa was just being Lisa, and her friend Ruby was going to go, but they both decided just to stay home and watch movies. We missed them. But, the party went on. I think I had the most fun I've ever had at Graham's.

I got to meet Michael!!!!! Woo Hoo!! LMAO. "Michael" is a guy that sings karaoke up on stage, and he's kinda like a hired singer. He's awesome. He sang Me & Mrs. Jones. I don't even know if that's his name but he looked like an ex-psycho-boyfriend of mine, so that's what we called him. hehe. That's funny. Anyway, we had a blast!!

Oh, and my friend big D didn't go. Which, I thought sucked because he couldn't just answer my phone call to let me know that he wasn't going. Even if it was for financial reasons...I would've understood...but instead he ignored my calls...that sucked. Oh, well...he missed out.

I think I need to start going out more with my girls. Maria was funny...everybody fell in love with her boobies.. I think I might just start calling her boobers. lol. And, she was grinding girls and those girls boyfriends were all going crazy!!! It was mad. Laurie is definitely going to be missed. Me and Maria started crying before we left cause we realized that the reason we were there was cause Laurie was leaving. SUCKS!! I'm gonna miss her so much. ::sigh::